self-deceit, self-abuse, fooling, fool to oneself, willful blindness, deception, play-acting, deceit, willful ignorance, illusion, more...

self-awareness, honesty, truthfulness, objectivity

lying to yourself,   lying to oneself,   self betrayal,   fooling yourself,   lying to myself,   lying to self,   tricking oneself,   deceiving yourself,   deceiving oneself,   illusion of control